You have officially escorted me into a night of suicidality. I needed to be treated for trauma in 1977 and again in 1978. Then again in 1979. In each case, not minor trauma, major multiple sexual offender in a cult, parental abandonment for two months with a cult where the sex abuse was happening, Then sexual abuse from an older female cousin, that continued until 1984. But since I didn't get those traumas treated, a couple dozen more related traumas came from them. Rapes that I wouldn't have experienced if I wasn't in high-risk situations. The inability to carry a pregnancy to term, because of my mental and physical health. The inability to form a faith or spirituality because of the cult's betrayal of my trust.