Don’t Tell My Husband I’m Agnostic
My husband is a staunch atheist. So was I when we met.
But I’ve been a lot of religions in my time: Mormon, fundamentalist Mormon, Seventh Day Adventist, Methodist, Baptist, Christian Scientist, The Vineyard, Church of Christ, Catholic, and Lutheran. My mother was a seeker. She still hasn’t selected a church into her 70s.
I always had my doubts, but being pulled from church to church didn’t help. Neither did the long period of time my parents conducted family church services at home with their own curriculum.
I went through a religious streak in high school because of guilt I felt over getting raped three times. I assumed it was punishment from God, so I went to 6:00 a.m. Bible classes at the Mormon Church my uncle attended. I asked my uncle to baptize me.
I attended a religious college — Lutheran — but reading the entire Bible again only put doubts in my mind. I wasn’t blaming myself for the rapes anymore. I got counseling from the college social worker.
Science classes actually never had anything to do with shaking my faith. A science-fiction program actually triggered my agnosticism.
A being that is more super than nature? I really doubt it. But I watch Star Trek. There are beings on the show capable of controlling time and space. So who knows?