I believe many of the people who fall prey to the worst ideologies are vulnerable and suffering. I have witnessed my parents and my brother fall victim to manipulative people with propaganda because they are not aware of the tactics being employed and by whom. They aren’t good analysts of information in their psychologically-weaker state. This made them candidates for others to target material at them. I believe this happened with you as well. There are groups of men with motivation to pick you up, and bring you into the fold. Having their group sustained by members who adopted the misogynistic belief system gives group members identity and value. It reduces their loneliness. Group membership is extremely valuable. As you know, people will kill for it. I hope you have found enlightenment through relationships with people of both genders. I appreciated your openness and honesty.