Mmm hmm, I do understand. One of the things that is hard is finding the right care for oneself in mental health. Unfortunately, a lot of people see one person and give up because they think that all people in the system will be like that one person they saw. My own husband acted like that for years, despite the fact he, himself, is a social worker. He should know better, but he got burned once, and didn’t want to try again. Sadly, it often takes more than one shot to get it right.